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Meditating on Jabber

By Vivi Sojorhn

 

Breathe in and it doesn’t matter

That my mind wanders to words

Said in furious, vicious jabber

I cannot apologize what was told

So long ago. Breathe out and out.

I want to shout pain of my heart.

Breathe in again. I am narcissism.

 

Copyright©Vivi Sojorhn

 

 

17 responses to “Meditating on Jabber”

  1. So well said. I’m so sorry I forgot to include the Mr. Linky info in my Quadrille post. If you click the “Mr. Linky” link at the bottom of the post, you can link up/share your poem that way. Thanks for your patience. De

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  2. Are you? You sound too self-aware for that. But likely you are not being autobiographical so much as painting a portrait. Perhaps it’s true that narcissism begins in pain.

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    1. Indeed, and I have some tendencies that come out in strange situations. Like when I have a seizure or giving birth. I am trying to get to the bottom of my fears.

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      1. Having a seizure or giving birth is pretty extreme! I think you’re excused any reaction! (I swore my head off the first time I gave birth.)

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  3. And I have experienced a lot of pain both physical and emotional. I do believe narcissism starts there with an availability to the waves of evil that we have to find the will to stand against.

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    1. I apologise if I’ve appeared to slight your experience. If you are indeed a narcissist, you are a very rare one, to be able to self-examine like that.
      Whether the label applies or not, it’s clear that you have experienced much pain, have been overcome by ‘waves of evil’ you are now seeking to resist, and have the courage for deep introspection with the will to change.
      I wish you every success in this quest – and, if possible, that you may find excellent professional help to make it easier.
      Thank you very much for your honesty here.

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      1. No worries, dear. It has taken decades to get here.

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  4. I can identify with your ‘furious, vicious jabber’, Vivi, and I often dwell on ‘what was told so long ago’. All we can do is keep breathing.

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    1. Oh yeah. Not all jabber is silly.

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  5. There are always those things said we regret afterwards, likely you are the one remembering the most.

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    1. This could be true. Thank you!

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  6. So well done, Vivi!

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  7. Vivi, the breathwork rhythm here really pulls me in, and “furious, vicious jabber” hits with such raw energy. Feels like an unfiltered exhale of truth! ❤

    ~David

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